Wednesday, February 09, 2005

waiting.....

last tuesday i resigned from my office. i didn't know exactly what i felt back then, i didn't feel sad nor happy, just plain i guess.
a lot of things will be waiting for me in next coming weeks. my new job on february 21, my wedding the next 2 weeks, my sister will come on february 19 and a lot of preparation to do before my wedding party.
i just hope everything will be ok, i always pray for that.
i plan to go to yogya this saturday and i will back on monday night. just try to change the atmosfer and take a little vacation before my hectic life comes ahead.
i thought i have a lot of things to say but suddenly i lost my mood :(
11.25 pm now, time to go sleep, good nite, have a nice dream

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Friends

i was reading one of my friend friendster and then i found out that she has so many friends and some of them are her best friends.
do i have many friends? yes i do have many friends
but how many best friends do you have? well i can't answer to that question
during my elementary school i have 2 best friends, mala and fira, but unfortunetly i don't know where they are now. we just lost contact, i try to find them on the internet but they seem not connected to the cyber world.
in senior high school, i used to think that i have best friends, but i don't know what they think about me. they like to do something and not involve me in.
in college all my friends who are i consider my best friends, never reply my mail or my sms.
in office, i do have some best friends, but sometimes i feel that we are best friends when we're in the office, on weekend or vacation, we hardly contact each other, may be because we just busy with our personal life.
well maybe the problem just me, or them? i don't know
some of my old friends still have contact with me, email or sms but i think they just friends, not best friends.
my boyfriend, who is going to be my husband in the next 2 month is my best friends, and also my sister.
maybe i just haven't meet my truly friends, but the clock still ticking so why worry.
the time will justify everything, and sometimes all you can do is just wait and see.